Sharpie Markers & King Kong
Oh dear. What a day...
So, today I was basically homeless. My new room key hadn't come in...and the temp key didn't work...therefore I was stuck roaming around campus for an hour and a half until they delivered the keys that were on order. It was very cold...and I was too late for class to do more than grab a hoodie and some gloves on the way out of the door. Luckily, I brought my flashcard and was able to get some yummy hot chocolate to attempt at keeping myself above freezing.
I missed work today. How the heck did I forget. I don't know if it is a good sign or a bad sign that they haven't called me. They probably forgot that I was supposed to be there too. And, if I would have gone, I am sure I would have been on chip duty again. Let me just say...I'm still pissy about that. Fat girl organizing chips = joke waiting to happen.
Then Becky calls me crying about George. He might need surgery. Awww...pooor baby George. He is the cutest lil boxer puppy ever...and I hope he doesn't need surgery. And Becky needed someone to go and sit with him tomorrow...I offered...but Denise is going to do it. Much better that way...cause I really didn't want to miss class.
Then, to top things off...John Mayer wasn't nominated for any Grammy's...U2 won everything...and I actually sat and watched Bruce Springsteen. Can't say I'm a fan. And then Jay decided to give me this emotional ultimatim. I can't help the fact that I'm not ready to be in love with him. And I guess it just shows whats up with us. The fact that he is done waiting shows me that the time limit he thought I was worth was over. Thats alright. I can't say that I'm not upset. I can't say that I don't love him...but I'm just NOT ready to be IN love with him. I adore him. But I'm not ready to be IN love with him. I'm just not. Its scary. And I just dont think I'm ready to be scared like that again. Or whatever. So, I'm just going to hope that what is meant to be will be...and that if it does happen...it will be at the right time for both of us...and it will be one of the most precious things ever. And I truly believe that it could be. And he wrote the cutest poem today. It totally made me almost fall on the floor. I feel like I have started to fall in love with him. I can't wait to hear his voice...I love his laugh...he makes me feel sooo nifty all the time. *sigh* And that just isn't good enough. But dammit...he deserves more than I have right now. And its not just a "RJ" thing...its a Tiffany thing. I just don't know that I'm going to do. And I guess that leaves me with the option of nothing for the time being. As Jay always tries to tell me "Don't force Fate". Well, I'm not....just yet at least.
And my 'effin tooth is hurting...and making my ear hurt...and making my whole shoulder and arm hurt on my left side. WHY!!?? I took some tylenol and it feels better...but I know that ish is going to hurt like hell in the morning.
Ooo! My poems got critiqued today in class...and people really didn't like the one I wrote about Becky and Georgia. I felt waaaay better about it when Jay said he liked it. And I think that he is an excellent poet...so needless to say his opinion mattered waaay more than anyone in my creative writing class. Plus, if you could see some of the poetry they write...and obviously think is good...you wouldn't give much weight to their opinion. For Jay to say that he likes it is a big deal to me. I really respect his opinion and I trust that he gives me honest answers. I hope to someday be half as good as he is. *sigh* He is so talented...it just blows me away sometimes. The newest slam that he wrote is SO good. I really like the message and it flows sooo nicely. WWJD! **lmao @ jay...you know whats up!!**
So, it is now 3 a.m....and I probably should be getting a bit of sleep in. I don't have class until 2:15 tomorrow...but I have been late a bunch for that class...showing me that I need to get up before 1:30. LOL. Oh...and Markita and I are friends again. And that makes me happy...now all I need to do is stop procrastinating and try to patch things up with Jen and Denise. I just sometimes feel like our friendship is soo superfical (or however you spell that ish). We never talk about anything real or deep. I definately need more to keep me interested in being your friend than chatting about your kitties and trading wack opinions about being a Lesbian. Even tho I love kitties and lesbians deeply....I just need a bit more, thank you.
The Bottom Line- Love is retarded.
Song- The Light- Common
Mood- Dissapointed
So, today I was basically homeless. My new room key hadn't come in...and the temp key didn't work...therefore I was stuck roaming around campus for an hour and a half until they delivered the keys that were on order. It was very cold...and I was too late for class to do more than grab a hoodie and some gloves on the way out of the door. Luckily, I brought my flashcard and was able to get some yummy hot chocolate to attempt at keeping myself above freezing.
I missed work today. How the heck did I forget. I don't know if it is a good sign or a bad sign that they haven't called me. They probably forgot that I was supposed to be there too. And, if I would have gone, I am sure I would have been on chip duty again. Let me just say...I'm still pissy about that. Fat girl organizing chips = joke waiting to happen.
Then Becky calls me crying about George. He might need surgery. Awww...pooor baby George. He is the cutest lil boxer puppy ever...and I hope he doesn't need surgery. And Becky needed someone to go and sit with him tomorrow...I offered...but Denise is going to do it. Much better that way...cause I really didn't want to miss class.
Then, to top things off...John Mayer wasn't nominated for any Grammy's...U2 won everything...and I actually sat and watched Bruce Springsteen. Can't say I'm a fan. And then Jay decided to give me this emotional ultimatim. I can't help the fact that I'm not ready to be in love with him. And I guess it just shows whats up with us. The fact that he is done waiting shows me that the time limit he thought I was worth was over. Thats alright. I can't say that I'm not upset. I can't say that I don't love him...but I'm just NOT ready to be IN love with him. I adore him. But I'm not ready to be IN love with him. I'm just not. Its scary. And I just dont think I'm ready to be scared like that again. Or whatever. So, I'm just going to hope that what is meant to be will be...and that if it does happen...it will be at the right time for both of us...and it will be one of the most precious things ever. And I truly believe that it could be. And he wrote the cutest poem today. It totally made me almost fall on the floor. I feel like I have started to fall in love with him. I can't wait to hear his voice...I love his laugh...he makes me feel sooo nifty all the time. *sigh* And that just isn't good enough. But dammit...he deserves more than I have right now. And its not just a "RJ" thing...its a Tiffany thing. I just don't know that I'm going to do. And I guess that leaves me with the option of nothing for the time being. As Jay always tries to tell me "Don't force Fate". Well, I'm not....just yet at least.
And my 'effin tooth is hurting...and making my ear hurt...and making my whole shoulder and arm hurt on my left side. WHY!!?? I took some tylenol and it feels better...but I know that ish is going to hurt like hell in the morning.
Ooo! My poems got critiqued today in class...and people really didn't like the one I wrote about Becky and Georgia. I felt waaaay better about it when Jay said he liked it. And I think that he is an excellent poet...so needless to say his opinion mattered waaay more than anyone in my creative writing class. Plus, if you could see some of the poetry they write...and obviously think is good...you wouldn't give much weight to their opinion. For Jay to say that he likes it is a big deal to me. I really respect his opinion and I trust that he gives me honest answers. I hope to someday be half as good as he is. *sigh* He is so talented...it just blows me away sometimes. The newest slam that he wrote is SO good. I really like the message and it flows sooo nicely. WWJD! **lmao @ jay...you know whats up!!**
So, it is now 3 a.m....and I probably should be getting a bit of sleep in. I don't have class until 2:15 tomorrow...but I have been late a bunch for that class...showing me that I need to get up before 1:30. LOL. Oh...and Markita and I are friends again. And that makes me happy...now all I need to do is stop procrastinating and try to patch things up with Jen and Denise. I just sometimes feel like our friendship is soo superfical (or however you spell that ish). We never talk about anything real or deep. I definately need more to keep me interested in being your friend than chatting about your kitties and trading wack opinions about being a Lesbian. Even tho I love kitties and lesbians deeply....I just need a bit more, thank you.
The Bottom Line- Love is retarded.
Song- The Light- Common
Mood- Dissapointed
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