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Whew! It feels soo nice and warm in my room. I have been out walking in the cold for quite some time. Don't you just love that feeling of relief when you walk into somewhere warm from somewhere cold?
Today in my LGBT studies class we watched a movie about Harvey Milk. Awww. I think he is soo adorable and I am very sad that one of the people he was elected and served with shot him. That is some backstabbing bullshit if I ever heard of any. He really was a nice, commendable, and just bubbly guy. LOL. Sounds like I met him or something...but I really feel like the testimonials and the comments really helped for his spirit to shine through. And let me also say that I want to go to San Francisco and visit the Castro! It looks like one fun place. :)
Spent the morning sleeping in before class. Man has my bed never felt so good. I'm still not sure how I feel about the whole Jay thing. *sigh* I kinda just feel like its too much to think about therefore I just won't. At least not today....okay, so I have been thinking about it on and off today...I just don't want to come to any in depth thought about it purposefully. I'm sick of all this emotional turmoil. I just feel like I need a break. I'm tired of feeling like a barbie doll in the washing machine...or tsunami for that matter. I've cried and boo hooed for quite some time now...and I just want to live a semi-normal, pleasant life that I had before I had the nice idea to think that I might want to be in some sort of romantic relationship with another person. Let me just say that relationships are very nice and fuzzy when they are being docile...but the minute something even goes minutely awry your tossed into this emotional rollercoaster. And I promise that I had lived a smooth and relatively peaceful life until I came here to Kent. I mean, there is always drama, but nothing so close to my heart. And it usually was resolved within a couple days and at the most a week. Sometimes I feel like these emotional scars and interests will be with me for eternity. And the moment I try to make some sort of decision about the treatment of them, I get all this conflicting advice. And I just don't know what to do anymore...therefore I don't want to do anything. I just want someone to come up to me and take my hand while they tell me that all I need to do is sit back and relax. They will take care of me. *sigh* I know you are now laughing histerically...but hey, a girl can dream right? lol...okay...I did chuckle a bit too. But it sounds so nice...
My hair is looking halfway decent today. I'm very proud of it. I have no clue what I did differently today than any other day...but I'm happy about it. And not like anyone worth anything is really going to see it. LMAO. Personal satisfaction is what I get out of a good hair day. Maybe my hair is done trying to figure shit out too...and will now be the docile mass I would wish it to be. ..............
And maybe a hoard of dancing turkeys will march into my room playing salsa music.......
Today in my LGBT studies class we watched a movie about Harvey Milk. Awww. I think he is soo adorable and I am very sad that one of the people he was elected and served with shot him. That is some backstabbing bullshit if I ever heard of any. He really was a nice, commendable, and just bubbly guy. LOL. Sounds like I met him or something...but I really feel like the testimonials and the comments really helped for his spirit to shine through. And let me also say that I want to go to San Francisco and visit the Castro! It looks like one fun place. :)
Spent the morning sleeping in before class. Man has my bed never felt so good. I'm still not sure how I feel about the whole Jay thing. *sigh* I kinda just feel like its too much to think about therefore I just won't. At least not today....okay, so I have been thinking about it on and off today...I just don't want to come to any in depth thought about it purposefully. I'm sick of all this emotional turmoil. I just feel like I need a break. I'm tired of feeling like a barbie doll in the washing machine...or tsunami for that matter. I've cried and boo hooed for quite some time now...and I just want to live a semi-normal, pleasant life that I had before I had the nice idea to think that I might want to be in some sort of romantic relationship with another person. Let me just say that relationships are very nice and fuzzy when they are being docile...but the minute something even goes minutely awry your tossed into this emotional rollercoaster. And I promise that I had lived a smooth and relatively peaceful life until I came here to Kent. I mean, there is always drama, but nothing so close to my heart. And it usually was resolved within a couple days and at the most a week. Sometimes I feel like these emotional scars and interests will be with me for eternity. And the moment I try to make some sort of decision about the treatment of them, I get all this conflicting advice. And I just don't know what to do anymore...therefore I don't want to do anything. I just want someone to come up to me and take my hand while they tell me that all I need to do is sit back and relax. They will take care of me. *sigh* I know you are now laughing histerically...but hey, a girl can dream right? lol...okay...I did chuckle a bit too. But it sounds so nice...
My hair is looking halfway decent today. I'm very proud of it. I have no clue what I did differently today than any other day...but I'm happy about it. And not like anyone worth anything is really going to see it. LMAO. Personal satisfaction is what I get out of a good hair day. Maybe my hair is done trying to figure shit out too...and will now be the docile mass I would wish it to be. ..............
And maybe a hoard of dancing turkeys will march into my room playing salsa music.......
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