Blogging Before Noon

So...I can't believe it. I'm BLOGGING BEFORE NOON. I do believe that this is the earliest that I have ever blogged. I didn't check...so don't hold me to that...but it has to be the earliest in a LONG time, if not ever.

So..I took a whole bunch of pictures and I can't wait to get them later. I have a whole bunch of some awesome people. So..Findlay is over. I have today..and then I leave. What does one say at the end of one road...and the beginning of another? I know that I'm going to miss all the fabulous people here at Findlay. I'm sad that I have to leave them behind...but I have to keep focused on whats ahead so that I don't GO CRAZY. I cried yesterday again. And I know that I will cry tomorrow. There is just something so tragic about leaving a place that you thought you would never need to leave.

Oh, my crush, I've got a crush
I suppose that I could hold it in
But you excite my every cell
Sources say that senses are your friends
My senses say that I should tell
You that I'm not ashamed
You might just feel the same

Oh my crush

I just get better with time
And so do you
So do you
My crush

Gavin knows whats up. I can't say anything other than I'm trying to hope that I do get better with time. And hopefully...they do too. Because...second chances are almost always last chances. If I see them again...I won't be ashamed... :) I gotta have FAITH.


So...Yep. Single. Sad. Lonely. Leaving.


Its kinda funny that I would leave Findlay the way I came. But totally different. So much has happened here.. I won't ever forget it. I totally confident that anything worth having from Findlay will follow me wherever I go..


Last Basketball game as a Findlay student today. I love basketball.

Hung out with White Kim last night. She is soo awesome. I love her. We played a new game and everything. It was too cool.

On a sad note...Desmond waited for us...and we didn't show up. I feel so BAD. One of the most awesome kids ever getting the unintentional shaft is definately not the way to show the love. So...yep. We probably won't get to see him again until New Years.

Chad drove us to TACO BELL. Yum. We hung out in the Lobby and talked like old times.
Gotta love the old times.



The Bottom Line- I'm leaving the way I came...but with better baggage and a new hairdo!

Song of the Moment- Crush, Gavin DeGraw

Mood- Sad....reallly sad

Less Clouds, Bluer Skies

So...I think that I was going for a depressed moment there.

Doing much better now.

I am actually excited because...well...I know that I can't live my life for anything but myself. And if something is meant to be.....I'll find my way. Yep....The only thing that matters to me is that I am talking my FAVORITE friend in the universe with me. And with her...I can get through it. She is the FREAKING STUFF...YEAH GIRL.

Yall really aren't ready for Vietnam. Really .....

YALL CAN'T GET @ US!!!!!!!


On a side note...Crushes are a love/hate thing. I mean..its really fun to like someone...because it gives your day that extra purpose of talking to them...seing them...but then again. There comes a point when you feel like...wow...its never going to be any more than this. And at that moment...your heart falls. But..the secret we're scared to talk about...at least for me...is that I you never really lose all hope. Somewhere in there...I lock away a little piece of paper that says "It still might happen...someday"....


LOL. I love it when I get philisophical and all of you just are like "Tiff...really". You really just need to love me.

So...I'm soo tired. I stayed up all night...and had a one of the best/worst conversations ever. I think I have a totally new outlook on life. It is soo...fragile...yet...durable. I just love people. And I get soo sad when they aren't happy. I just wish I could fix the world sometimes. I know that sounds cheesy...but I do. I love PEOPLE.


Alrighty..........let me think. I went to Midnight Munchies. That was fun. How can anything with the Braziel Twins not be fun? AND LANETTE! WTF? That is some fun stuff for sure.


So...finals are almost over. I hate saying goodbye...but I love new horizions. Hmm...who wouldda thought.


The Bottom Line- Findlay time is over....Good things are sure to come.

Song of the Moment- Vindicated, Dashboard Confessional

Mood- Happy, excited, optimistic

Slow Jams

So...lately my life has been like a slow jam. I'm lonely, brokenhearted, sad, and just plain miserable.com.

I can't believe I cried today. I told myself I wouldn't. And, to make things worse, Desmond and Mollie were there. *sigh* I just want to not be sad. I should be excited....Findlay isn't for me...

So..I am really excited about classes being over. I have to do a media kit in like..oh...a couple hours...but that's okay. I will get it done. I'm just that good.

Okay...not to be repetitive...but to go back to the whole WSU thing. I really want to leave. I am kinda really sick of the people here. Now.. I am sure someone reading this is like "omg...me?". Probably not you. Because...the people I can't stand doesn't even know this journal exists. And better yet...some of them don't even really realize I exist.

So....I got the Gavin DeGraw CD and WOW. I really love that. If you don't have it...get it. Thats the new hotness fasho. I loooooove it.

Really...I can't seem to get these bad feelings to go away. Sometimes I just wish that I was a different person. But, then again, I love being me. I love the people that love me and I wouldn't want to trade the things like that for the world. Its just that sometimes...being me is hard. And...there are some times I just focus on what I don't have...and forget about what I do. So...because I am mad that I'm doing that...I am going to make a list of things that I have.


-Things That I have-
*Wonderful, fantabulous friends
*The GREATEST best friend/roommate ever.com
*A nice, cozy, warm, soft, fluffy bed to sleep in and a nice teddy to hug
*A computer to chat with...cause I love all my NETBUDDIES
*The best cousin ALIVE
*A pet fish
*Food to eat
*A toothbrush
*Hair gel
*Rides to the store
*My mommy
*Condoms...cause they have saved lives...
*Nature
*Religion
*The telephone
*College...education is going to give me a good life..



So...I think those are the major ones. I am sure I left something out that is going to make some one say..."hmm..what a bitch". But...its whatever.

To end...I am going to quote Gavin...cause this is my life right now

"Sometimes the only way is jumping, I hope your not afraid of heights"

That time is coming...and I don't know if I can jump....



The Bottom Line- Sometimes all I want is someone to cuddle and tell me everything is okay.

Song of the Moment- More than Anyone, Gavin DeGraw

Mood- Lonely, Sad, Scared